Friday, 15 August 2014

Anxiety, depression and general mental wellbeing

After the sudden, shocking news of Robin Williams taking his own life I have been thinking a lot about how I deal with the day to day ups and downs and when those DOWNS become too hard. I found an amazing article on Buzz Feed '21 Things Nobody Tells You About Being Depressed' and it was really eye opening to realise I agreed with a lot of them when I look at my own behaviours when I feel low.

It seems silly finding this information from BuzzFeed seeing as I am training to be a therapist but they spelt it out so simply and it really did open my eyes.

I wanted to share it in the hope that it can help you too.

The best bit of advice from this article was 'Talk to someone about how you feel'. Sharing might seem hard but a problem shared is truly a problem halved!

Hope this is helpful. Love T x

40 days of flow-ish

SO it is August 15th and I feel like 40 Days of Flow have been a bit of a FAIL! The fact I went to a 4 day long music festival in the middle might have something to do with it and on returning from that festival caught a bug. Once again I am making excuses but i'm only human and thats what we do! RIGHT?

SO having been in my bed recuperating for the last 4 days I went for a Swedish Massage last night (from my lovely flat mate who is training) and got in to bed at 21:00, although I didn't fall asleep right away, I did have a bloody good sleep and today I have woken up feeling 100% better and even went for a run.

EXERCISE TICK

When I got back from my run I made myself breakfast. A small coffee with coconut milk, 3 corn caked with peanut butter and half a little avocado and lunch was a free from pitta with hummus, prawns and salad.

HEALTHY FOOD TICK

SO... after what looks like 10 days off the 40 Days of Flow i'm trying to get back on the horse. I'm just thankful that what ever was making me feel so ill has gone as I was beginning to get really down from not moving.

Although I definitely wasn't fulfilling my daily habits they were always on my mind. Even when I was drinking like a fish at the music festival. I still ate well and made sure I was drinking lots of water and it seemed to help as I didn't have too horrendous a hang over at the festival. PHEW!

I feel like feeling ill and a wee bit down have made me really look at how I treat myself. I am very hard on myself. Even with something like the 40 Days of Flow, I have missed days and felt incredibly guilty, which wasn't the idea. But I am glad that I have seen how that makes me feel. I have taken a step back and realise I need to treat myself better. Last night my friend gave me a Swedish massage and I cried after at how much I needed some Me time. I focus so hard on the things i'm not doing that I forget to reward myself for the things I am doing. About two months ago I started running and all I focus on is the fact I can't get to the next timed run. Why, why, why can't I hit the 30 min run? Beating myself up about it. But actually I need to really look at what I have accomplished. I can now run for 23 minutes without stopping. That is a huge accomplishment for someone who has never been a runner.

Well its almost 14:00 and I feel like the day is going well. I've hooped, run, eaten well and now I am going to look at some work for university.

I'm amazed at home much not following this 40 Days of Flow has helped me!

Hope it's helping everyone else too!

Speak tomorrow!

T X

Tuesday, 5 August 2014

40 Days of Flow: Day 5. Failing miserably!

WOW! I feel like since saying I am going to do this '40 Days of Flow' that I have got worse at ignoring the healthy, positive habits I want to incorporate back in to my life instead of embracing them. Today I woke up at 12! WHAT? I set my alarm for 8:00 and just ignored it! I wanted to go for a nice early run and embrace the day but I think my unconscious had another idea! I was up most of the night waking from strange dreams and seeing things around my room whilst half asleep but really I should have just got up.

So I missed breakfast so to make up for being so lazy I had chicken broth and a piece of brown toast for lunch. At least thats more in the lines of a healthy habit. Think I will go for a run around 3 and come back and have some apple juice and fruit.

I am pretty sure this laziness is coming from partying too much and being back at my Mum's. It makes it difficult to get in to a routine when you're not in your own home. But at least I am acknowledging that I'm not doing well! RIGHT? So today will be healthier and I will get stuff done I need to do before going to the music festival on Thursday. Wow! Time is flying already. Cannot believe its August 5th already! Summer is really whizzing by. Before I know it I will be back at uni. EEK!

I will write again on here tonight to see what the rest of the day brought and talk about the last few days

Have a wonderful afternoon!

T x

Saturday, 2 August 2014

'40 Days of Flow' day 2! Not so much flow!

Its August 2nd, the second day of '40 Days of Flow' and I'm not sure I'm doing too well!

I went for a run but after a few days off, due to too much partying, it was a tough run and I only lasted 15mins, poor show. Hoping tomorrow will be better. Going to make up for it tonight with a bit of Pilates stretching too.

I've been nice and healthy though. Lots of water, fruit juice and chicken noodle soup! So at least I'm being healthy that way. I'm back home in the Highlands for the week to help out my Mum who is recuperating from a hip replacement and to go to a music festival at the weekend. So I imagine this first week of '40 Days of Flow' wont be so healthy but hoping the partying over the weekend will end in a bit of a detox!

Whilst I am home I don't have access to many art materials but my guitar lives here so i'm going to try and play every day and keep that up when I get back to the city and get learning some new songs.

So far it doesn't feel like my best effort at this but thankfully it's only day 2 and everything can change and get better! Lets hope that having this wee blog to write will keep me motivated!

Going to try to write a wee motivational quote each day.Today's is...

DON'T BE SO HARD ON YOUR SELF!

Tomorrow is a fresh day and I feel like there is something to focus on whilst I am home away from the city, hope everyone else who is doing this challenge is doing ok!

Speak tomorrow

Cheerio for now, T x